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Today I am 12 weeks.
I don’t know where to begin. I feel like I have been waiting for this day since my last pregnancy. And now, here I am.
12 weeks today. 3 months pregnant.
My clothes, of course, are tighter. My belly is expanding(at the end of the day). There has been no bleeding, I am still pregnant.
Today, I got dressed for work, and asked C-Dub if I looked pregnant.
He said yes!
But NO ONE at work has figured it out yet. I guess they just think I am gaining weight.
I am so surprised that I managed to keep this a secret for 12 whole weeks!
I feel like everyday, I could spill the beans. But I don’t! I think today, I am going to tell my closest circle of friends. I’ll start there. Actually. I told my mom that if I made it to 12 weeks, she could tell whoever she wants.
I wonder if she told anyone?
But I still don’t plan on telling anyone. Why? Am I waiting for everyone to guess?
It’s really weird. I just like having this secret.
I have decided that my 2nd trimester is going to start next week when I turn 13 weeks.
It seemed like the perfect middle ground.
I’m happy today. My little Baby Dub is the size of a plum today.
Wow. Just wow.
Well, despite wanting to call out and not take myself to work in the hospital for the upteenth Saturday in a row, I went in. Mainly because, C-Dub needed a new tire, and we need to go to Mississippi weekend after next for a graduation. C-Dub’s brother is graduating from high school. We need money for a hotel and a rental car too. There is no way I am sleeping at the mother in law’s. The room we usually sleep in is C-Dub’s old room. The bed is as old as we are. And so is the damn mattress. You can feel every last spring and every last valley. I barely sleep two hours in a row as it is! There is no way in hell I was sleeping on that bed 3 months pregnant. So hotel it is.
So off I went. Grumbling and cursing the whole way. For twelve freaking hours!
But, there was one bright spot in this day. I snuck into one of the unused rooms with a doppler.
It took me FOREVER it seemed, but finally, waaaaaayyy down by my pubic bone, there it was. I could hear Baby Dub! Well, I got the 150s for a little while, but then, the doppler wouldn’t record the number even though I could still hear it.
Well, 10 weeks 4 days. Last time, at 10 weeks 6 days, I started spotting. I am praying and hoping and wishing this doesn’t happen again. I can’t really take it. But I am driving myself a little crazy. I mean, even if i make it past then, who is to say that …..
I keep trying to stop my thoughts from going in that direction, but it’s hard. I’ve been letting more people in on our little secret, and it almost scares me every time I do. In the back of my mind, a little voice says:
“that’s one more person you will have to tell……”
I am trying to think only of the positive here. I know that thoughts are things. But I thought soooo positive last time, and look what happened. I am trying to take peace in the fact that I have seen the heartbeat “officially” twice now, and that everything is fine. The baby is growing fine. Last time, the baby always measured small for dates. I take comfort in the constant morning sickness, the fatigue, my breasts, the strange strange dreams, my appetite.
I am seriously thinking about renting a dopplar. Just for my piece of mind.
I just want piece of mind.
Really, I just want it to be November and I want to be holding my baby in my arms.
So, today I am 10 weeks.
1/4th of the way through this pregnancy!!!
Yeah for us!
So this tenth week starts with me deciding to buckle down and eat healthy. Soooooooo, I’m sorry to say good bye McDonald’s we will only meet now and then to have those delicious golden fries…………
Anyway, I need protein I think. I get full quick, but then, a few hours later(like now) I am STARVING!
I broke down yesterday and went into Motherhood Maternity. I’m down to two pairs of pants. My fat jeans and my still too big fat khakis that make me look fatter.
Sooooo, I got three pair of pants. Well, capris’ really since it’s warm. But they are so comfortable!. They all sit right at the hips basically with the belly panel or the elastic that fits right under the belly. Wow. And I look normal in them, you can’t even tell!!! All my shirts still fit, so I didn’t have to buy any. But at least now, I have something to wear!
Oh, and we have officially graduated from a embryo to a fetus this week! Yeah!